Our Adoption Journey: Trusting God in the Waiting

Waiting.  It's probably my least favorite activity.  In fact, as I sit here typing, Rob can't contain his laughter at this thought.  I have always been terrible at waiting.  I can look back, now, and see how God has been preparing me for this very hard waiting period.  I see the times He let me wait on other things.  Waiting on jobs.  Waiting on pregnancy.  So much waiting.  But, through all of it, I have learned that it is God who brings me joy in my waiting.  I know that His plans for me are good.  And He is perfect in His timing.  As I look back, I can see how the waiting has done so much for me.  I have learned patience.  I have learned grace.  I have learned contentment.  I have learned to wait.

In our adoption journey, waiting has characterized much of the last few months.  Waiting for documents to come back.  Waiting on the authentication process.  Waiting, waiting, waiting.  The biggest and longest part of the waiting process has been waiting to be matched.  Thousands of questions plague me, daily: Who will we be matched with?  Will it be a boy, like we expect?  Will we be surprised with a girl?  How old will they be?  What will the look like?  What will their personalities be?  What medical conditions will they have?  Who will they grow up to be?  So many unanswered questions.

For now, though, we are called to keep waiting.  So we will wait, eagerly, to be matched with our child.  There is so much hope, so much excitement and anticipation wrapped up in this period of waiting.  But, we know, so much joy will find us here, in the waiting.  As you pray for us on our journey.  Pray for us, while we wait.  Pray for our patience as we learn to wait and to trust in God.  Trust His timing and trust His plan for our family.

Psalm 62:5 "Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him."

Our Adoption Journey, Step 5: Love Crosses Oceans (t-shirts!)

Love.  It has been a theme of mine the past few months.  God's boundless love.  Christ's redeeming love.  The love of families.  The love of friends.  The love that I am called to give to others.  Throughout our adoption journey, I have been coming face to face with my need for love.  And my need to show love and grace to others.  Love, real love, is not always easy.  It involves sacrifice, tough choices and sometimes enduring pain.

But that is what adoption is all about.  It is about choosing love.  Making the tough choices, choosing sacrifice and sometimes enduring the pain of separation, loss and grief.  But there is beauty in adoption.  Beauty in the picture of Christ's love for us.  A love that crossed a great divide, one we couldn't cross ourselves.

For that reason, love has become our theme for our adoption.  A love that crosses oceans.  For the next step of our adoption, we are beginning our next fundraiser.  Using our theme, Rob designed t-shirts that incorporate China, and "Love Crosses Oceans".  If you love T-shirts, adoption, or just want to support our journey, please consider purchasing one of our shirts.  They are available in Adult sizes, S-XXL, for $20.  Please include $5 for shipping, if you are ordering from out of state.  Payments are due by Tuesday, January 31.  Feel free to send check or cash to us directly or to our online fundraiser at: https://purecharity.com/bley-family-adoption/.  Shirts will take 2-3 weeks to be printed and delivered.  Please contact Leah via text/email/facebook with your order.

Thank you so much for your love and support throughout our journey.  All of your prayers and kind words have meant so much to us.  We cannot wait to share your love with our little one (hopefully) soon.

Our Adoption Journey, Step 4: Certification

There are still more steps in the paperwork process.  The most complicated part, so far  Authentication.  In international adoptions, every document that is part of the homestudy process has to be authenticated, or "legalized".  For every country/state the procedures can vary.  For us, it meant traveling to three different county courthouses before Christmas.  It also means mailing documents to various Secretaries of State, U.S. Consulates and to the U.S. Department of State. Many of which require couriers and return envelopes with tracking numbers.  As you can imagine, the fees add up.  So far we have spent almost $300 on different fees and I expect to spend quite a bit more before we have finished the process.  

It is scary to know that if certain procedures aren't followed correctly, we might need to do the process over again.  So, I drag in my big, scary binder of papers and documents to the UPS store each time I mail a document.  Yes, I bring a large 3-ring binder to the UPS store.  Where ordinary citizens just want to mail Christmas gifts to their loved ones.  I take 15 minutes to go through each document, get the right envelopes and check the addresses, twice.  I'm sorry to you, busy working gentleman, holding a very large, heavy package and waiting while I open my binder and recheck the addresses, a third time.  I'm sorry.  There isn't even room on the counter for it all.  But the nice UPS man reassures me every time that it will be OK.  And we send off the next paper.  

But, it is just part of the process.  Just like the homestudy. And parent training.  And so many other details.  You can pray for us during this process.  Pray for patience.  And wisdom.  And trust that God will work out the little details.

Our Adoption Journey, Step 3: Parent Training

Our homestudy required lots of steps: paperwork, visits with our social worker and parent training.  The parent training process was not what I expected.  I expected to be told about how to be a good parent: discipline, expectations, consequences, etc.  But, the majority of our required 12 hours of parent training was more insightful.  We learned about how to be a good parent to our child.  The unique struggles that he (or she) will have.  Struggles from living in an orphanage.  Struggles from a transracial adoption.  Struggles from loss and grief, unique to adoption.  We also learned about the importance of attachment theory in adoption.  

For those that are not aware of attachment theory, it is the understanding of the importance of  emotional bonding that (should) occur between parents and their child from the moment the child is born.  Everything that seems natural to parents (direct eye contact, mimicking sounds, close body contact, etc.).  Sadly, children in orphanages or other circumstances that can lead to adoption are deprived of this crucial bonding.  It can have a detrimental impact on a child's development.  For more information about attachment theory, I strongly recommend reading The Connected Child by Kathryn Purvis (one of the leading researchers and authors on attachment) and Forever Mom by Mary Ostyn (a personal account of one mom's stories of adoption).  Both books give excellent insight into the importance of attachment.  

I am no expert in any of these fields, but our parent training was very enlightening.  It provided so much for us to consider and gave way to great conversations.  Conversations about expectations in our home.  Conversations about adoption.  What other people will say.  How to handle rude comments.  How to approach the topic of adoption to our child.  How to love them as our own, but respect their experiences as an adopted as genuine and different than our own.  So many valuable things.  

Throughout our parent training, I continued to realize that I will mess this parenting thing up. Big. Time.  I will say the wrong thing.  I will react the wrong way.  I am a broken, sinful person, trying to raise a child.  But, despite these things, God loves me.  He loves me because I am His child.  And that is the same love that I will give to my child.

Our Adoption Journey, Step 2: Orientation & Homestudy

This blog has taken me a few weeks to write.  Not because it is a hard topic, but because of our massive to-do list.  It seems unending.  Orientation. Fundraising.  Home study. Paperwork.  Research. So. Much. More.   At the end of September, we met with our agency to go over the basics of our adoption process.  It was three hours, much of which was discussing the paperwork process and the history of the agency.  Then, it was lunch and getting started on the mountain of paperwork.  Six days later, a social worker was in our home, explaining the home study process and discussing more of the paperwork process.

For the most part, the paperwork isn't hard.  It's just complicated and a little stressful.  Notaries.  Background checks.  Fingerprints.  Financial information.  Employment information.  Photographs.  Birth Certificates.  Marriage Certificate.  Physicals.  If we make a mistake?  We have to do it over again.  Which costs money.  And time.  I know that in the end, it will be ALL worth it.  Not just because we will be adopting a beautiful, amazing blessing from God.  But, because we are learning so much on this journey.  Learning to depend on Christ for all our needs.  Learning about ourselves and each other.  Slowly, carefully, lovingly being molded and shaped into the vessels that God wants us to be.

What's next?  We expect this process to take us through the next 4 months.  At that time, our paperwork will *hopefully* be complete and shipped to China, where it will be reviewed for the approval of our adoption.  Until then, we pray, trust and work.

Our Adoption Journey: Fundraising

International adoption, in general, can cost between $20,000- $40,000.  That number stopped me dead in my tracks the first time I saw it, years ago.  It might as well have been $1 million.  I remember thinking that if God wanted me to adopt a child from another country, he would have provided a better paying job for both of us.  Ha!  What I am beginning to realize is that God will provide us the money for this adoption, if that is what He is calling us to do, no matter how He chooses to do it.  He spoke and the world was created.  He can handle a few thousand dollars. 

Why does it cost so much?  There are just so many parts of the international adoption process.  First is the paperwork.  Every paper has a fee.  Home studies.  Physicals.  Fingerprinting.  Background Checks.  Passports.  Visas.  Adoption fees.  Then, there is the travel cost.  Two tickets to China and three coming home.  Hotel fees.  Food.  And probably so much more that we don’t even know, yet. 

Now that we are on this journey, it’s time for us to begin fundraising.  We need your help.  We can’t do this alone.  We need your prayers.  If you are willing and able, we would also appreciated your donations.  We know that God will provide for us through this journey, but we would love for you to be a part of it.  For anyone that donates to our adoption we have prepared a special gift for you (and our child).  Leah has created the artwork shown on this page to hang in his or her room.  We need your help to finish it.  For each person that donates through the online fundraiser, or any other fundraisers, we would like you to participate in finishing the artwork.  Once the artwork is finished, we will display it on our blog and hang it in our child’s new bedroom. 

Please think about supporting our adoption and being a part of our exciting journey!  If you are interested in contributing a donation, please click HERE to visit our Pure Charity adoption page.  Donations should be tax-deductible.  Visit Pure Charity's website at: www.purecharity.com for more information.

Our Adoption Journey, Step 1: Application Approved!

After three weeks of paperwork, our application was officially approved by our agency, CCAI. Someone out there thought we will be great parents.   Purple hair, and all.  So, we celebrated and ordered takeout.  Here we are, being ridiculous:




But really, it WAS exciting.  It is the first time that we have had a "yes" in this whole messy process. It hit me the next day.  In this whole mess with infertility, we have spent most of it looking at the broken pieces of the journey, wondering if we would ever have a family.  We never had a "yes". Until now.  So we celebrated!  And ate takeout food.  And took cutesy pictures of rocking chairs.  And grinned like idiots until our cheeks were sore.  And cried the happiest of tears.  I know that this will be a rocky journey, with lots of ups and downs, but it is one that I am excited to take!