Our Adoption Journey, Step 7: Care Package

In the last month, we have been matched and pre-approved to adopt our little man, Then, we finished our paperwork, it was translated, sent to the CCCWA in China and logged in. Whew! What a month!

What's the next step? Most likely, we will receive our LOA (letter of approval) in May or early June.  Until then? More waiting. While we wait, we are sending a care package to Carter. Most likely, this will be his (and his nannies') first heads-up that he has a family.

So, we put together a few things for Carter, and his friends in the orphanage. Here's a peak:

1. Shirt: We bought him at cute, short-sleeved shirt, size 3T. Hopefully it will fit. His measurements were all over the place. So, we guessed. Realistically, we will probably never see him in this shirt--but that's okay. He needs a shirt, so he gets a shirt. Besides, if it doesn't fit him, I can hope it will be worn by another little boy that needs a good shirt.

2. Photobook: In the corner of the picture, you can see our book. It is filled with pages of our family, friends, house and puppy. Most importantly, pictures of us, telling him that we love him.

3. Wooden trains: I can't tell you how fun it was to shop for small, simple toys. We have waited so many years to buy things for our child. To get him something that might put a smile on his face. We labeled these: "to share with your friends". Why aren't they just for him? After 8 months on our adoption journey, our hearts have broken for orphans around the world. How will his friends feel, knowing Carter is going to be adopted, but that they may never be? We bought more, identical trains for him to have at home. These toys are for him to share and will stay at the welfare institute. We cannot adopt them all, but we can love them. And send them things that will put a smile on their face.

4. Dum-Dums: Because everyone needs suckers. We couldn't fit the entire bag in that tiny box, so we put some in a Ziploc bag for him to share with his friends.

5. SD card: For the nannies and caregivers to take pictures of Carter and his friends. We hope that they will take pictures of him and everyone he knows at the orphanage. I know that he will treasure those pictures for years to come. Pictures of those who loved him before we could. We thought about sending a disposable camera, but we are hopeful that the orphanage has a digital camera (and maybe it's more convenient for them?). If we send another care package, we might send a disposable camera, just in case.

6. Letter to the orphanage (not pictured): Our agency wrote out a letter, in Mandarin, explaining that we love Carter and that we are coming for him soon. We asked that they take pictures of Carter and his friends. We asked that they let him know that we are his family and love him until we can get there. We also included a copy of our pre-approval from the CCCWA.


Somehow, we fit it all into a tiny little box. Seriously, I'm not sure how.

Our Adoption Journey: LID, DTC, and all the other letters...

In China adoption, there are so many different acronyms. Why? Because there are so many, detailed steps to international adoption. So, below, I have compiled a list of all the acronyms that we might have used (or will in the future) as part of our adoption.

CCAI: Chinese Children Adoption International. Our adoption agency. It is one of the largest China adoption agencies in the US. They have been around for over 20 years and assisted in more than 10,000 adoptions of children from China. For more information, click HERE.

CCCWA: China Center for Children's Welfare & Adoption. The government agency in China that is in charge of orphan care. It is the agency that will (hopefully) approve our adoption and our travel to China to adopt our little boy.

USCIS: United States Citizenship & Immigration Services. The US government agency that oversees citizenship and immigration. Because Carter will be a US citizen as soon as he in on US soil, we have background checks and visa approval through USCIS.

LOI: Letter Of Intent. The letter that we wrote to the CCCWA, indicating our desire to adopt our specific child. It included specific information about him and our promise to love and provide for him, to the best of our ability.

PA: Pre-Approval. Following our LOI, the CCCWA pre-approved our adoption of Carter. This happens before they read through our entire dossier. After we received our pre-approval, we were able to share pictures of Carter to our friends and family. Although it is not the official approval, it is an exciting step, to be allowed to share pictures and (limited) information about him with those who love us (and him) and are praying for us all.

DTC: Dossier to China. Our dossier paperwork has been sent to the CCCWA in China. Usually within 2 weeks, it is logged into the system. And, if there are no concerns with our paperwork, we can be (hopefully) be approved in 2-4 months.

LID: Logged-In Dossier. Our paperwork has been logged into the CCCWA. Nothing has been officially translated, read or approved. This date, however, is very important because everything that happens for our adoption usually hinges on this date. Approval, travel, etc. is always based on this date.

LOA: Letter of Approval. The CCCWA has read through our dossier and approves of our adoption. WE GET TO ADOPT!!! This, of course, is one of the most important steps. (Don't get excited, it hasn't happened yet!)

TA: Travel Approval. About 2-3 months after our LOA, the CCCWA will usually approve us for travel. At that time, we are only 7-10 days from going to China. This hinges on travel visas for us and for Carter, approved by both the US and the CCCWA.

Our Adoption Journey, Step 6: Getting Matched and the Waiting Child Program

Recently, we were matched with our beautiful boy. The matching process can be a long process, filled with periods of waiting. At our agency, it begins with a form, MCC (Medical Conditions Checklist), that allows us to describe our openness to a child's gender, age and medical conditions from China's Waiting Child Program. The rest of the matching process? Mostly waiting.

What is the Waiting Child Program? Currently in China the large majority of children who can be adopted in the U.S. are part of the Waiting Child Program. These children typically have a medical need. Older (9 yo+) "healthy" children, can also be part of the Waiting Child Program. Children that are part of this program can have a variety of mild to severe conditions, including cerebral palsy, Down Syndrome, cleft palate, heart defects, blood disorders, malformed/missing limbs, etc. Many conditions are considered "minor" here in the U.S. and are even treated/repaired before the child is adopted. To learn more, read our agency's description HERE.

Why adopt from the Waiting Child Program? I'll admit, at first it was a little daunting. To know that our challenges would be bigger and tougher than we'd dreamed when we first thought of starting a family. But, slowly, without even realizing it, we not only accepted the idea of raising a child with a medical condition, but we have come to embrace the idea. Recently, our agency asked us why we chose to adopt a child with medical needs. Our answer was simple, yet profound: because a child's medical condition shouldn't prevent him/her from having a forever family.

Do you have to wait to be matched a child by your agency? Yes, and no. There are many different ways to be matched. You can wait to be matched as you complete your paperwork. Many agencies also share children from the "Special Focus" program on their websites. After you have done your initial application, you can request information about these children. Typically, children on the "Special Focus" program are considered to have multiple needs or more significant medical needs.

What about Carter? Is that his real name? Yes, it will be his real name when our adoption is complete. He does have a Chinese name that was given to him by the orphanage. When he becomes our child, we will give him our name. We do plan to keep his Chinese name as a middle name for him, to preserve his identity and heritage as a Chinese American.

Does Carter have a medical condition? Is he "OK"? The short answer: yes and yes. We were matched with Carter about three weeks ago, although we didn't formally accept the referral for about a week. What took so long? We wanted to be prepared for what life will look like when Carter comes home, so we sent his file to medical professionals and did LOADS of research. His condition? Nothing that we are worried about (and neither should you). And nothing that will keep him from leading a normal, healthy life. Instead, pray for our time of transition as Carter learns what it means to have a family and we learn what it means to be parents. And pray our next period of waiting: waiting to bring him home.

Our Adoption Journey: No Small Contributions

I’d like to begin by extending a huge thank you to everyone who has contributed to our adoption financially or otherwise. We have been blessed beyond measure to see the charity and graciousness of so many. Thank you, thank you, and thank you.

Then, for lack of a better transition, fundraising is no fun. Like another friend of mine has recently posted, “I hate asking for money.” When we began the adoption process, I knew that we would not be able to do it alone. It has been amazing to see God work through the hands of friends, family and complete strangers. I know in the past, when I saw friends post about such things, I often thought that I couldn’t really help as I didn’t have a lot to give. I thought, I don’t have hundreds or even thousands to give, so I won’t. How silly and how limiting my own thought process. How limited my perspective of God and what he is able to use to accomplish his plans and purpose.

This week when we posted Carter’s picture we had almost 400 likes, and I was struck by a simple thought. What if everyone who “liked” that photo simply contributed $20 to our Pure Charity account? If that happened, we would reach 70% of our remaining fundraising goal. Yep, the power of a twenty dollar bill multiplied. That’s a trip to Chipotle, a movie or coffee at Starbucks with a friend.

If you have already contributed, do not feel obligated. Also, I know not everyone can contribute financially, nor am I expecting or trying to guilt everyone into doing so. Yet I am struck by that thought of how something so simple and small could make such a big difference. We’ve seen the compounding power of small gifts with our T-Shirt fundraiser. With that in mind I felt led to share what was on my own heart. There are no small contributions.

https://purecharity.com/bley-family-adoption/

We welcome and are eternally grateful for your continued and future support. 

Our Adoption Journey: Cracks in My Heart

When we began our adoption journey, I had no idea what God had in store for us.  I still don't, really.  But, I am beginning to see the picture that he is painting.  It is a picture that has begun with little cracks in my heart.  The first one appeared as I began to read about attachment disorder.  I began to realize that children in welfare institutes (orphanages), even in the best circumstances, cannot have their emotional needs met.  Without the love and support we are made for, their brains become wired differently.  Unable to understand the world the way that we know things.  Crack.  My heart began to break a little for those darlings.  It radically changed my thinking.

Months later, we sat with friends and talked about their adoption.  They opened my eyes to more: their school-aged children are not allowed to attend public schools.  They attend school in their welfare institute (orphanage).  Crack.  My heart broke more.  No school?!?  I know that public school is not a the best solution for every child.  But, I know what a tremendous thing it can do for a child who is experiencing troubling circumstances in their home life.  I have seen it.  Somehow, I thought, public school could help them.  The children could learn and be treated like every other child.  It might give them a sense of worth.  And a relationship with their peers outside the institute.

Recently, I saw a photo of children in an institute in China that I can't get out of my mind.  It split my heart into pieces.  It is a photo of young children, in cribs, wearing clothing that acts like a straight jacket.  The photo was taken by a mother while visiting her daughter's orphanage.  There are so many scary implications to the photograph.  The institute is considered a "good" one by China standards.  The mother was given permission by institute personnel to take the photograph.  This photograph was taken recently, after China has come such a long way in the standards of care for children in their institutes.  What is going on at other institutes in China?  Or other parts of the world?  What is going on where adoptive parents aren't allowed to photograph?  Or aren't allowed to visit?  What is going on where they don't have "high" standards of care?  The picture has broken me.

I will never, ever look at adoption or orphans the same.  I can't.  My heart won't let me, it is broken.  And, that's okay.  As a friend of mine said, "Be broken.  It is RIGHT to be broken.  What I am saying is this...do not look away from this.  Do not block it out of your mind.  Because these kids are the least of these.  They are the poor, abused, neglected, oppressed, lonely, sick and unwanted....But Jesus.  He adopted me when I was a mess.  And He adopted you, too.  And because of that we have a new nature.  We KNOW JESUS and trust in Him, and so we have to look at the scary, hard things with new eyes and a new heart.  His eyes. His heart.  And  He is not afraid of anything."

I pray that God will use this picture and our experiences to break your heart for the orphans around the world and here at home.  Please, don't shut it out.  Weep for them.  Pray for them.  Advocate for them.  Love them however you can.

Our Adoption Journey: Trusting God in the Waiting

Waiting.  It's probably my least favorite activity.  In fact, as I sit here typing, Rob can't contain his laughter at this thought.  I have always been terrible at waiting.  I can look back, now, and see how God has been preparing me for this very hard waiting period.  I see the times He let me wait on other things.  Waiting on jobs.  Waiting on pregnancy.  So much waiting.  But, through all of it, I have learned that it is God who brings me joy in my waiting.  I know that His plans for me are good.  And He is perfect in His timing.  As I look back, I can see how the waiting has done so much for me.  I have learned patience.  I have learned grace.  I have learned contentment.  I have learned to wait.

In our adoption journey, waiting has characterized much of the last few months.  Waiting for documents to come back.  Waiting on the authentication process.  Waiting, waiting, waiting.  The biggest and longest part of the waiting process has been waiting to be matched.  Thousands of questions plague me, daily: Who will we be matched with?  Will it be a boy, like we expect?  Will we be surprised with a girl?  How old will they be?  What will the look like?  What will their personalities be?  What medical conditions will they have?  Who will they grow up to be?  So many unanswered questions.

For now, though, we are called to keep waiting.  So we will wait, eagerly, to be matched with our child.  There is so much hope, so much excitement and anticipation wrapped up in this period of waiting.  But, we know, so much joy will find us here, in the waiting.  As you pray for us on our journey.  Pray for us, while we wait.  Pray for our patience as we learn to wait and to trust in God.  Trust His timing and trust His plan for our family.

Psalm 62:5 "Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him."

Our Adoption Journey, Step 5: Love Crosses Oceans (t-shirts!)

Love.  It has been a theme of mine the past few months.  God's boundless love.  Christ's redeeming love.  The love of families.  The love of friends.  The love that I am called to give to others.  Throughout our adoption journey, I have been coming face to face with my need for love.  And my need to show love and grace to others.  Love, real love, is not always easy.  It involves sacrifice, tough choices and sometimes enduring pain.

But that is what adoption is all about.  It is about choosing love.  Making the tough choices, choosing sacrifice and sometimes enduring the pain of separation, loss and grief.  But there is beauty in adoption.  Beauty in the picture of Christ's love for us.  A love that crossed a great divide, one we couldn't cross ourselves.

For that reason, love has become our theme for our adoption.  A love that crosses oceans.  For the next step of our adoption, we are beginning our next fundraiser.  Using our theme, Rob designed t-shirts that incorporate China, and "Love Crosses Oceans".  If you love T-shirts, adoption, or just want to support our journey, please consider purchasing one of our shirts.  They are available in Adult sizes, S-XXL, for $20.  Please include $5 for shipping, if you are ordering from out of state.  Payments are due by Tuesday, January 31.  Feel free to send check or cash to us directly or to our online fundraiser at: https://purecharity.com/bley-family-adoption/.  Shirts will take 2-3 weeks to be printed and delivered.  Please contact Leah via text/email/facebook with your order.

Thank you so much for your love and support throughout our journey.  All of your prayers and kind words have meant so much to us.  We cannot wait to share your love with our little one (hopefully) soon.